Outburst Of Emotions ( Part 6 )

 

It is not even a dream as on the other hand somewhere I am again getting that kind of feeling of being avoided as if I simply do not exist in a world like this where I thought that it was a nice place to live but trust me on this one and I have again started to feel annoyed by not giving any single opportunity of treating the friendship that I had with my bhabhi Ma. I have started to feel that there are only 3 members that exist in the family.

 Even so, adding one more has given me the creeps of feeling too much lost in a city of wasteland. It is simply a wasteland for me now as I value human beings much on top of ridiculous topics to be discussed by the same man again and again. 

Calling something which is the most valuable asset in terms of the junkyard is unforgivable. Talking to the lower class behind my back and secretly discussing all the rubbish things is something that Is always and always will be a wasteful list of conversations.

 I have lost the value of a family member as I was earlier happy but as of now just an invisible person where people are more interested in cleaning the most resourceful items without a thought and giving a heart attack afterward whenever finding those resources is somewhat not likable at all. I have spent my life referring to a family member as a kid in front of other people which is a real sense do not have any kind of significant values is something which again boils the anger of other people is something again which is not acceptable. 

I was never this way. What I meant to say is lately strange events are taking place in front of me which I am not liking one bit. 

I was happier with the communication that we used to have but now it seems that everything is over. I will not tolerate any more nonsense imparting on myself and I will be the way that I feel which gives more comfort to me and forget the whether the world likes it or dislikes it but in my opinion, I will continue to be in the state that I was before and also even in the future.

 Any sort of change or recommendation against me is not what I like the most. There is another unforgivable incident that would be to distance me from my very own daughter and all such things as putting on a black tikka over the head of my daughter is something that is simply a symbol of illiteracy and nothing much more than that and I am against it.

 I am not liking it one bit and I will remove that no matter whatever happens. This thing of distancing relationships is not at all right and I would talk no matter whether this world gets upside down because now it is too late in the daylight to start over from the very start.

 That big irritating fellow who irritates a lot must know which ones are with himself and which ones are not. I need equal treatment as a family member and communication with someone who has done his part. 

Perhaps even more than that is an equally important person and fading him slowly out of the picture frame is getting on my nerves and trust me on this one that is passage is not over yet until I wish to stretch it a little bit further but anyway writing down the thoughts is somewhat different and doing certain tasks, in reality, are different aspects. I would prefer to stick to my ground of words as of now.

Until Next Time.

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